Xmas chaos

Just like how we M'sian Muslim got psyche over Eid..it's the same way the Irish Christian got mad over Xmas.

The wards are so quiet. One ward was even closed because they're short of nursing staff (good news for intern oncall!). There's massive Xmas ornaments everywhere, and some of them gets into your face(no, I'm not short, they were hung low). Boxes of chocolates, Xmas cards, bottles of wine and hundreds other goodies lying around in the wards. Everywhre looks a bit messy, especially when Ethel is not around. On Friday, there's party everywhere.. the lab party, the physio party, the OT party...and I saw Dr Clarke rushing to every one of them..hmmm...

Anyway, we're down to 3 patients today. And Durkan has none (clap clap..you have 5 tonight..ahaha). Carol and Colin rushed home early today, they went home at 10.30am. Besides one annoying request to talk to family member, nothing else major happened. I managed to sleep from 2-5pm..

The daughter of one of my patient was pretty frustrated. Well, I can imagine how she felt. Her mum has been in for 3 weeks for diarrhoea. No infective nor organic cause was found. And yeah, we've ruled out the famous congestive enteropathy. Today CT TAP showed no abscess. We thought it might be a pancreatic abscess..the fact that she previously had CBD stricture(which was stented and biopsies were normal), malabsorbed and diarrhoeic (relieved with Questran). And so, she cant go home for Xmas. And the family cant celebrate Xmas happily, the fact that the mother is in the hospital. The daughter has been trying to speak to one of the senior member of the team..and she even brought her cousin who is a gastroenterologist! So, who am I to speak to him? Anyway, I did tried my best, and the daughter kept cutting in. Finally she said, "This is so frustrating. Imagine, she is your mother..". And so I said, "Yes, I can imagine how you felt. My father had a pancreatic abscess, and he had to be operated."

And only then she shut her mouth up!

I had lots of preliminary goodbye hugs. From Elaine the physiotherapist; Theresa, St John's ward clerk (Eka gonna hate me); Carol; Breege, the student nurse; Laura and Kevin, the surgical intern (Kevin's gay, so dont worry Say); and my good friend Andrea the ECG technician...

I'm on for Xmas. And luckily, the nursing staff on for Xmas are the kewl people I like. Hope its not too busy/difficult. This Saturday, I'm driving back to Galway, need to pack my stuff. Dont worry Say, I wont drive to fast...between 60 to 110...I think I'll do 90 (considering its going to be frosty)..

xxMUAHxx

Merry Xmas..hohohohehehahah!

suck it up

Suck it up Marisa. And deal with it.

Everything.

Betrayal. Hatred. Disapointment. Loneliness. Winter. Sickness. Cold.

Isn't this great? Life is full of colour :)

Do please note the sarcasm.

syncope

I fainted yesterday.

Haha. Funny isnt it. Yesterday was supposed to be my last day of work before flying back to Msia for my annual leave.

But, I fainted during the grand round. Luckily I sat at the back, so, I didnt create any big havoc. Tapi, sedap jugak la kena tampar ngan Dr Ahmad. And kesian gak ngan Dr Maher sebab kena angkat aku yang berat nak mampus nih. Ehehe. And Fais yang cuak2 nak amik darah aku..wooo..boleh tahan besar jarum ko Fais!

So, terpaksa la aku masuk casualty. Dr Clarke pulak lalu kat area tu, maybe dia curious, apa dah jadik ngan intern aku nih. Lepas tu dia cakap, " Pity you. We've overworked you. Lets check the blood, if it's OK, I'll let you get the day off before you fly tomorrow." Dalam hati, YEAY!!!

So, everything was fine. Bloods, ECG, CXR. Just pyrexic. Memang tengah demam pun.

And so, I was happily discharge by Dr Safwat. My diagnosis (concluded by me own...) ialah, vasovagal syncope secondary to dehydration and pyrexia secondary to winter vomiting disease....

Hahaha..jangan kasi tau sesaper..nanti aku tak dapat fly kalo kene kuarantin!!!!

i need something

I'm so crap.

I realised that I'm 24, and I'm crap.

I have achieved nothing. I'm just a plain medical intern. No great history. No trademarks. No experience that actually WOW anybody. No achievement that worth praising. I dont know how to play any music instrument. And it's too late (and too bothersome) to start now. My grammar is crap and my imagination is bad. I cant write a novel or book or even a diary. I'm not good looking. And I'm just a toilet-artist. I dont have cool new gadget, or even any modern tech knowledge. I cant even work around Photoshop. Even as a doctor, I feel that I'm just like a slave. I dont have a KEWL social life.

Hmm.

All around me, people actually achieved something. A PhD in Music. A trip all over the world. Meeting famous people. Won a writing competition. Becoming a top-paid model. Performed central venous line. Got married and have children. Own a cool photoblog. Go to concerts. Performing on stage.

Envious.

Me? Owh... nothing. I'm so down to earth. 6 feet under.....

I'm 24

Hi. I'm Marisa. And I'm 24 today.

I told Breeda, one of St Jose's nurse. And is she LOUD??!! She announced it to the other nurses...to my team as well!

Terkejut SHO and Reg aku. Nyehehe. Bos aku ucapkan selamat hari jadi kat aku. Frankly speaking, that was our longest conversation. Tanya aku dok mana...balik malam2 pakai apa...bla bla. Takpe bos, aku janji aku balik 12pm sharp ini malam. NO MORE OT!

Oh, Jumaat ni ada team dinner. Takut plak, coz bos gurau2 nak blanja aku 'minum'. Haha. Siap suruh aku wat jahat banyak2 pastu baru best taubat. Pandai la ko bos. Bos aku 39. Colin 31. Carol 25. Hmm. Bos aku cakap, masa dia 24 pun, dia intern lagi. Kewl.

Oh ye, aku oncall ini malam. Sabtu ni tak sabar aku nak blah Galway. Seb baik Oisin sudi tukar oncall ngan aku. Kalo tak, penat gak kene oncall dua hari next week.

Ok la. Selamat hari jadi to me. Biasa for the last 5 years, time macam ni mesti aku tengah lepak ngan housemate depan TV after dinner, sambil menerima hadiah hari jadi (hint hint). Tahun ni, dok kat ward station tengok blood result or letak cannula. Dinner pun tak lagi. Nampak sangat dah tua......

save the kids

Tak faham betul!

I'm so mad! Geram sangat2!!!!

Apa dah jadik kat Msia? Why are they behaving like animal?? What is going through this people head??

It's no longer safe to live in Msia. Luckily I was born 23 years ago, or else, as a girl, I would be very scared to live in Msia. Either to be left alone in my own house or even to go out to the kedai runcit. Man are behaving like animals. They see kids as delicacies. These man raped, sodomised then killed these kids. Apa nilai nyawa? Mana pergi sifat kemanusiaan?? What do they see in these kids, that they even have such disturbing desire??? Tak kesian ke dengan parents yang penat2 belai, didik dan jaga anak2 diorang tu? Bukan seorang dua. More and more cases in the news lately. The more the government warned about it, the more actions that had been taken to prevent it, THE MORE IT HAPPENED!

Ini la yang jadik bila tak ada panduan agama. Bila gila bergelumang dengan dadah, arak dan seks bebas. Gila. Gila. Buat malu bangsa dan agama. Paling mengejutkan, in USA and UK, there's paedophilia-like RPG video games! Where gamers can actually stripped and do whatever mental-crazy-psycho thing they want with the 'children' in the games!!! SICK!!!

For me, these people should be hanged to death. Hidup tak guna, menyusahkan masyarakat. Entah2 kalo ada anak, anak sendiri pun dia salahguna pakai!!!

ARGHH!!!

Astaghfirullah....

29-4

I love this week.

Monday is bank holiday.
I've no oncall during weekdays.
Dr Clarke's away.
Dr Sham's covering.
I lost another kilo.
Wednesday was pay day.
Colin made a prank joke on me...but he's cute when he laughed/smiled, so it's OK.
Me and Kevin are oncall this weekend. He's big fun!
Got text from Pey Seei..she's coming to Ballinasloe next weekend!
I called Izah. MISS YOU!
Me and Rafli got back together :)