last paper

So, yeah..I did said I'm not gonna post until the 18th..But what the heck..

Damn, the last paper was like s%#@. Quite dissapointed really, in myself and the stupid 'hint' from the surgeons...crap!

Oh well..I supposed I just have to do my best in the clinicals (which is kinda 'hard'..duh!)

It was actually a funny scene during the exam... Heard Zhanna screamed when we first got the question paper. Midway through the exam, Catriona was frustratingly scribbled on her paper, Muireann was laughing when she saw Catriona doing that. Ciara at the back was grumbling to herself... and me? Got too much time myself (since I've no clue on how to answer those fecking questions)...sempat cuci mata tengok the invigilators, the 5th MBs, and the colleagues around me.. arghh!! Oh yeah, and I was warned twice for continuing to write after the time's up..BWERKKK!!!

It was terrible indeed. We had 3 questions on tumour staging, 2 on trauma.. the only thing(s) that made me glad were the vascular and ortho questions! May God bless you, Sultan and O'Sullivan!!!

And damn those stupid hints from Regan and Kerin (and Urology too!!). Abihla keter korang aku calar nanti..huahahaha!!

And you too Kelly!!! Sheeshhh..staging??? Berapa banyak nombor I have to memorize tu!!???

And so, we head to the town after the exam. Everyone was frustrated. Me, never in my life, I had to gamble on questions that I didnt read about on!! CRAP!

Bought a patella-hammer-bag. Haha. That bag definitely gonna end up with my sister later on.

Went home and saw Liyana and Wan sunbathing at the backyard. Kinda serene actually.... Cant wait to go home... (still pissed off)

Oh well..sorry for the foul words.. Should have seen how Zhanna was saying the 'F' word and 'shit' in front of her daughter.. then you'll understand how frustrating it was...

Oh feck...surgery..never fits me anyway. Despite how Kak Dian used to say I have good hands...

Round 5..ting,ting,ting

I would love to write "And so, all the effort that has been put in for the last 5 years to create Dr Marisa end up dot dot dot.."

That, however, can only be told on the morning of 18th of May. (They used to release the result on the night of the last day of exam, but this year, they felt it is wise to wait for 2, 3 days to do so... Reason? They want to make sure that they've calculated the result correctly, this year... HUH? So to say, there were "mistakes" in previous years???)

Anyway, the final exam starts tomorrow. And ongoing for nearly a month...Definitely going to be the toughest battle ever. This time around, how you wish for something like Doraemon magical pocket..or even the ability to see the future, or to be able to listen to "the-most-brilliant-student-in-your-class" mind...But most importantly, how you wish you've another day or two, or even regretting how you should have start revising earlier and spent less time on the Internet...

Ok la friends...it's time to continue my last minute cramming. Hope to get enough sleep tonight. Sleep has been bothersome this few nights. I've been like the guy character in Stephen King's Insomnia.

I believe, all the struggle to make it through every year, will be worthwhile. I've determined to be a great doctor, not only to cure but to teach. Though I am sometime incompetent, I believe, my determination will save me...So, dear God...please let me pass!!!!!

Oh yeah. See you on the 18th of May.

A quick holiday

Paid the deposit today!!

Yey!! I'm going back to Msia on the 19th of May. The day after the result's out. Either good or bad, it doesnt matter..I'm going home!!!! (kalau kantoi, boleh nangis puas2 in Msia)

I've been wanting to go home since Xmas hols. Reallyyyyyyy miss Dudin and Fan-Fan.

Yey!! Going to Penang, then Bangkok, then to KL. Back to Kuching. Then off to Mulu!! All in 25 days!!

Meeting Poolin in Penang. Ann and Amar in KL (hopefully). Izah, Peah, Dino etc etc in Kuching. And off to Mulu to see Angie!!! YEYEYEYEYEYYYY!!!

Then, back to Galway on the 14th of June. Well, that depends.... on the result la. ARGHHH!!!!

anime otaku

Ah, Good Friday and Easter Hols..good days for revision. Not.

I've gone from Bleach..to Death Note..to Gintama...to Yakitate Japan...to Genkinshen...to Azumanga Daioh...to Samurai Champloo...to Case Closed....in 3 days.

ARGHHHHHHHH!!!!!

mix

I was going to write lots of stuff today. Apparently a lot of things have been going on in my head, but everything is so mixed up, I dont know where to start.

One thing for sure, I havent start panicking yet, which is a bad sign. 14 days to go.

Yesterday, I was pestering mum to send me bubur pedas and kulat hitam (kempunan beb), and she replied me " Ok, no problem, nanti papa hantar chef wan sekali". Haha, nice one mum.

Everytime I call home, dad will ask, "Nak papa hantar apa2 ka?". And mum will ask "Ada duit blanja tak?". Heaven kan?

I made sup sayur kailan today. Sempoi banget. Bila makan tu, teringat my mum coz that's her favourite dish. No wonder I was so skinny in high school. Sup sayur jek everyday. Datang Galway ni...hampeh.

Received a card from Kak Madz today, wishing me luck and said that I'll be doing fine. Ahaha. Another big expectation. Kak Madz said, my cousin, Rashid Salleh, is the host for the Breakfast Show on NTV7 now. She said, me and him, we look alike... huh?

Watched Dunia Baru season 2 few days back. Takut deh, coz the heroine is pregnant, and she was happily jumping up and down in the series...gilos...mau miscarriage nanti.

Taught the 3rd med last weekends. Kinda a terrible teacher, I dont know much la. But it's a great feeling to teach others. Anak cikgu la katakan. Adik cikgu jugak...congrats sis.

I've completely forgot Dudin's birthday. Not only that I didnt send him a card, but I forgot to wish him when I called home, twice. And mum said, he kept asking her "bila kakak marisa balit sitok ka?". Huhu.

And the old man who sells cucur (pronouced 'cucoq') pisang in front of his school is no longer selling.. Asked him why. He said, "Aih, ne kamek tauk. Ompuan dah di sia. Kalik nya malu"

Haha. Pandey plentey juak kawu Dudin duhal.

Got to pray..ciao.

Esok saja....

Peace