absurdity

If I'm a 31 years old, para 5, diagnosed of ovarian ca stage 3B and I'd to get a staging laparotomy +/- proceed, the first few things I'm gonna ask will be:

1. what are the chances that I'm going to survive post-op, or died on the table during the operation?
2. with 5 kids, who are going to take care of them while I'm sick in the hospital, or died..?
3. if my mortality rate is high, have I done enough as a good muslim to secure a place in heaven?

The last thing I'm gonna ask the surgeons again and again and again.. will be, "will I be able to have sexual intercourse with my husband after the surgery??????????"

OMG!

Thats the most absurd thing/question I'd come across from a patient throughout my medical years... I mean its OK to ask once, but 7, 8 times? Aku jadi malu as a perempuan. And she asked me again (while I was getting the operation consent) in front of her husband.. WTF...

Come on la lady, think about your own life first la.. If you're dying, nak bernafas sendiri pun tak larat...

Death do us Part

When I woke up from pengsan around 7pm just now,mum is already back from Sibu.

She was celebrating CNY in Sibu with her mum and sis. Because of CNY, mum didnt bring back roti kompia :(

We were having dinner dan dia tiba2 bukak cerita.
She boarded the flight to Sibu, together with a prisoner who was sentenced to death penalty, escorted by 2 police officers. It was a drug case, where this fellow guy was caught when he was at the courier office, collecting a parcel containing ganja. He was with another guy at that time, but story tells, the other guy surrendered and testified against him in the court. So, this poor fella,tried to appeal to the high court in Kuching but with no luck. According to dad, he'd made few mistakes leading to his sentence. He uses false name when he was getting the parcel, he ran when he saw the police, and he threw away the parcel when they were chasing him. All the GUILTY sign. So dad advised, if we're to drug trafficking, make sure we act cool and act innocent when we're caught. Nice one dad, thanks for the advice.

Then both mum and dad start to reminisce all the criminal cases they knew in Sibu. One of the cases happened in 1970s, when mum was in Form 6. There's this one murder case in Kpg Biduk., aroung Sibu la.. There was this young couple, where the boyfriend was going to further hi sstudy in Taiwan. The girlfriend was afraid that this boy will leave her, and so she decided to wait behind the bushes with a huge parang. She knew this boy will pass that bushy area on his bicycle. So, when this budak lalu, she came out from the bush and stabbed him straight into his tummy. He bleed to death. That girl was then caught, as she was the prime suspect in that little Kpg Biduk. However, her parents managed to get one of the best criminal lawyer in Sibu to defend her, and she ended up free from the murder conviction. Scary thing was, that lawyer married that girl, and has few kids together. Ewww... I cant imagine what kinda deal they had.

"Marry me, and I'll make sure you'll win."
"Yeah sure, but dont leave me, or I'll stab you in your sleep."

life and death

An unknown female was heavily intoxicated and was hit by a truck. Her face was heavily disfigured, her left eyeball bursted, her skull fractured causing severe diffuse cerebral hypoxia. Family opted for euthanasia after explained of poor prognosis.

A 13 years old boy was in a passenger seat when his father tried to overtake another car at a sharp corner. Luckily for the seatbelt, he suffers no head trauma. However, due to high impact from the seatbelt, his large bowel perforated and needed emergency laparotomy and bowel resection.

A 27 years old guy was driving at 120m/hr. Failure to wear seatbelt resulting him being thrown out of the car upon head-on collision with another car. He suffers from severe brain damage and currently dysphasic and unable to swallow.

A 31 years old guy was half asleep while driving early a.m. Hit a truck and ended trapped beneath it. Now, he's spastic quadriplegic, urinary and faecal incontinent.

A 24 years old lady was driving back from work when another car hit her (hit and run). She fractured her left femur and severed the femoral artery, led to haemorrhagic shock. She died few hours later due to cardiac arrest.

This is not a public notice about safe driving. This is a reminder to everyone, how life and health is precious only when it's gone. True, death is inevitable. But failure to appreciate life is not excusable.

- surgical internship reminisced -

suster ngesut has a challenger

flu

Despite the amount of oranges I've consumed lately, the Vitamin C doesnt seem to be protective...

Yes, there's been flu bug going around the wards lately. And I'm one of the victim. HACHOO!!

Oh ya, my ol' colleague, H has gone up to Gynae. Gonna miss working with him laa.. Ehehe, but next week I'll be gone to Gynae as well.. So, my new partner is the little Y. She's so cute!! Her eyes are like that cat character in Shrek... She's superb, so rajin! YEAY!. I'm blessed with hardworking colleagues!

Back to having flu... mata sudah mau lelap, kepala sudah berat, kerja presentation belum siap..

Ini Rathik's nyer pasal, spreading her virus to me...NYAHAHAH!!!

Here he comes

My stalker, the post office guy, has been stalking me again. Well, I cant find any other word for that.

He's managed to find where I stayed. I supposed he still kept the PosLaju form. He had waiting for me at my house, messaging me few times to meet him. But of course, I'm not around. I'm in a safe haven, the MW...

Kept calling me during my ward round. Sending me messages that send chills up my neck. Eww.

I told dad about him and he's pretty pissed off. Hmm..

Anyway, he's been quiet now, so hope he'll stay that way.

As H said when he listened to my story, "Life is so interesting for you laa..." Yeah, rite!

MRCP babes

Good luck to Roq, Mira and Aini who are going to sit for their MRCP part 1. May you pass the exam 1st try (macam Bro Hafiz). So great rite? Muda2 dah jadik Registrar. Balik Malaysia, kene wat HO-ship balik. EHEHEHE.

(I wonder if all my MRCP and FRCS books are still intact. You know la those cockroaches and mices and lizards. They all love "expensive western meal". Newspaper tak main laaa...)

Takpe, sume tu duit 'grant'. Ditaja khas oleh HSE..ahaha..

Twilight

Twilight is a movie, everyone should watch with their partner.

Of course, I think everyone knew it's based on a novel. Which I've been eyeing since last September, but didnt had the money (ahaha..ahahaha..) to buy it.

Turns out, the bok is just OK. It emphasize more on Bella's feeling (really good description) , so basically you felt like you're falling in love with Ed Cullen as well. And no, I havent watch the movie, yet.

I think I have a crush on this vampire thingy. The first one was Queen of the Damned's vampire-guy.. what was his name???

Anyway, I should watch the movie sometimes. The DVD is just in front of my eye...

Lalala...

BBA

That Kelantanese student who gave birth in her college room, is somehow, obnoxious.

I cant stand seeing her laughing around with her friends.

When the other day, I had to console her sad father who came all over from Kelantan to settle her problem.

De Javu...

People, please, if you plan to give birth, even if its out of wed-lock, at least, go to the hospital... Dont simply deliver in your room, cut the cord with an unsterile scissor, and end up having puerperal sepsis.

Thank you, your cooperation is greatly appreciated.

happy 2009

Happy new year pips.

Because my old blog was terkantoi, so, I had gone through a lot to change few details, and of course reminding myself not to use full name, just abbreviations or nicknames in naming people in my blog. Fuhhh...

2008 was great, lots of great moments, not so much of the bad. Anyway, I hpe 2009 will be so-so, not too bad, but hoping for the best.

I expect a lot of surprises this yeark!!!