i need something

I'm so crap.

I realised that I'm 24, and I'm crap.

I have achieved nothing. I'm just a plain medical intern. No great history. No trademarks. No experience that actually WOW anybody. No achievement that worth praising. I dont know how to play any music instrument. And it's too late (and too bothersome) to start now. My grammar is crap and my imagination is bad. I cant write a novel or book or even a diary. I'm not good looking. And I'm just a toilet-artist. I dont have cool new gadget, or even any modern tech knowledge. I cant even work around Photoshop. Even as a doctor, I feel that I'm just like a slave. I dont have a KEWL social life.

Hmm.

All around me, people actually achieved something. A PhD in Music. A trip all over the world. Meeting famous people. Won a writing competition. Becoming a top-paid model. Performed central venous line. Got married and have children. Own a cool photoblog. Go to concerts. Performing on stage.

Envious.

Me? Owh... nothing. I'm so down to earth. 6 feet under.....

I'm 24

Hi. I'm Marisa. And I'm 24 today.

I told Breeda, one of St Jose's nurse. And is she LOUD??!! She announced it to the other nurses...to my team as well!

Terkejut SHO and Reg aku. Nyehehe. Bos aku ucapkan selamat hari jadi kat aku. Frankly speaking, that was our longest conversation. Tanya aku dok mana...balik malam2 pakai apa...bla bla. Takpe bos, aku janji aku balik 12pm sharp ini malam. NO MORE OT!

Oh, Jumaat ni ada team dinner. Takut plak, coz bos gurau2 nak blanja aku 'minum'. Haha. Siap suruh aku wat jahat banyak2 pastu baru best taubat. Pandai la ko bos. Bos aku 39. Colin 31. Carol 25. Hmm. Bos aku cakap, masa dia 24 pun, dia intern lagi. Kewl.

Oh ye, aku oncall ini malam. Sabtu ni tak sabar aku nak blah Galway. Seb baik Oisin sudi tukar oncall ngan aku. Kalo tak, penat gak kene oncall dua hari next week.

Ok la. Selamat hari jadi to me. Biasa for the last 5 years, time macam ni mesti aku tengah lepak ngan housemate depan TV after dinner, sambil menerima hadiah hari jadi (hint hint). Tahun ni, dok kat ward station tengok blood result or letak cannula. Dinner pun tak lagi. Nampak sangat dah tua......

save the kids

Tak faham betul!

I'm so mad! Geram sangat2!!!!

Apa dah jadik kat Msia? Why are they behaving like animal?? What is going through this people head??

It's no longer safe to live in Msia. Luckily I was born 23 years ago, or else, as a girl, I would be very scared to live in Msia. Either to be left alone in my own house or even to go out to the kedai runcit. Man are behaving like animals. They see kids as delicacies. These man raped, sodomised then killed these kids. Apa nilai nyawa? Mana pergi sifat kemanusiaan?? What do they see in these kids, that they even have such disturbing desire??? Tak kesian ke dengan parents yang penat2 belai, didik dan jaga anak2 diorang tu? Bukan seorang dua. More and more cases in the news lately. The more the government warned about it, the more actions that had been taken to prevent it, THE MORE IT HAPPENED!

Ini la yang jadik bila tak ada panduan agama. Bila gila bergelumang dengan dadah, arak dan seks bebas. Gila. Gila. Buat malu bangsa dan agama. Paling mengejutkan, in USA and UK, there's paedophilia-like RPG video games! Where gamers can actually stripped and do whatever mental-crazy-psycho thing they want with the 'children' in the games!!! SICK!!!

For me, these people should be hanged to death. Hidup tak guna, menyusahkan masyarakat. Entah2 kalo ada anak, anak sendiri pun dia salahguna pakai!!!

ARGHH!!!

Astaghfirullah....

29-4

I love this week.

Monday is bank holiday.
I've no oncall during weekdays.
Dr Clarke's away.
Dr Sham's covering.
I lost another kilo.
Wednesday was pay day.
Colin made a prank joke on me...but he's cute when he laughed/smiled, so it's OK.
Me and Kevin are oncall this weekend. He's big fun!
Got text from Pey Seei..she's coming to Ballinasloe next weekend!
I called Izah. MISS YOU!
Me and Rafli got back together :)