perasaan

Kadang-kadang, untuk marah...tak perlu ada sebab.

Kadang-kadang, untuk menangis...tak perlu ada alasan.

Kerna manusia dilahirkan berperasaan.

Dan walaupun manusia itu berakal untuk melogikkan segalanya, hati itu ternyata lebih kuat.

Maka, marah dan menangislah.

Jangan terlalu kaku. Jangan juga terlalu sombong untuk melepaskan baran dan mengalirkan air mata.

Kerna perasaan itu anugerahNya.

Nikmati segalanya. Dalam amarah. Dalam tangis.

:)

Perasaan itu yang mewarnakan hidup ini...

Thanks to Him

Today,

thanks to Allah, after weeks of rainy weekdays, today was lovely and sunny;

thanks to Allah, I am still alive. The whole campus was shocked with the news of the missing 1st year medical student last weekend. Today, at about 4.05, we got the news that his body was found in the lake at Achill Island. Must be very devastating for his family;

thanks to Allah, it wasnt me alone who found it difficult to interview a 'mock' patient today. Apparently all other students had problem with this guy. Who would thought that he had a 'hidden agenda'. So, I'm not 'stupid' then;

thanks to Allah, compared to others, I had such a great time with my GP attachment and that I had a nice GP to work with;

thanks to Allah, He gave me the ability to write my feelings off, because I'm sucks when it comes to telling others how I feel;

thanks to Allah, I still have friends who remember me and kind enough to drop by and asked me "How are you, today?";

thanks to Allah, He gave me supportive classmates who reassured and tell me I was doing good despite how bad I had done for the day;

thanks to Allah, He let me be with such a great guy, who would forgive me for the stupid thing I had done before i.e. breaking up with him. It's when you heard of others failed relationship, then you'll tend to appreciate yours better and grateful for being with such an understanding person.

thanks to Allah, I still have some money this Friday for my rent, because my allowance wont be deposited until next week. Ahaha...;

thanks to Allah, I had never had to break a bad news to anyone before, because I am never prepared to do so..until today..;

thanks to Allah, He gave me quite a headache this morning. That meant that He had thought of me. And that's such a good feeling, actually...;

thanks to Allah, I had food on my table, hot water to bath in, high motivation to start studying (eheh), comfortable bed to sleep in, and good housemates to be with.

Finally,
thanks to Allah for everything I didnt mention above.

~When you had such a day, it's good to thank Him. At the end of the day, there's always the good side of everything that had happened, that He had meant for us to see and be grateful of~

Thanks for giving me the insight to thank You.

Dari vena ke makmal.

Survived two days of GP attachment in Barna.

Overall, I really, really love it. Taking blood, doing blood pressure, filling up forms, request for XRay, doing IM injections, chat with Angela (the receptionist) and Dr Gibbons..free cups and cups of tea. And early finish.

The down-side of it is that, the GP start at 9.30am, and the earliest bus I can get is at 8.20am. So, basically I arrived 45 minutes too early. Barna is just a small town. The only shop that's around and open early is SuperValu...I spent more money buying unnecessary stuff in the mart, than the intended budget.

I should be able to spend only EURO2.80 (one-way to Barna). Or EURO5.10 (return).

On my first day of attachment, I managed to get a ride back to UCHG with one of my GP's patient. The patient was discharged by the hospital the day before. She had to be admitted again because Dr. Gibbons suspected P.E (Sx: feverish, cold, hyperventilating,nausea,vomiting,and severe chest pain). I spent almost 30minutes, holding a paper bag to her mouth, to help her stop hyperventilating. I managed to apply my Obs/Gynae technique of 'breath slowly, relax now, take a deep breath again..etc..etc..' (of course without the 'PUSH!! PUSH!!' thingy) to her. Luckily she came about OK. Oh yea, and Dr Gibbons asked me to drop of all the blood sample for various tests at the UCHG Lab..so, I became a delivery-girl as well...

Well, I havent ask Dr Gibbons for any patient yet. She's off tomorrow, taking a day off to study psychology/counselling. Dr Healy's on tomorrow, dont know how she's like.

Anyway, Barna is OK. The fact that the town is a bit boring and there's not lots of bus going in and out Barna is a put-off. I dont know how I am going to survive another 45 minutes tomorrow...maybe I'm going to take a walk at the graveyard...Hmm...Or feed the countless horses and ponies in Barna..ahaha..

Apa2 pun, aku lebih suker buat keje dari dok dengar patient cakap2. Ahaha. Nampak gaya takde harapan la jadik consultant (malas study+malas dok diam). Jadik 'kuli' je la camni. Takpe, takpe. Yang penting aku hepi. Ingat lagi masa aku wat attachment child psych ngan sorang macik ni. Dia cakap, dia patutnya dah bley jadik consultant. Siap dapat offer. Tapi dia tanak. Aku and Aini pelik. Pastu, dia cakap, tak semua orang nak jadik consultant....Owh...Aku pun camtu gak :P Tapi tengok ah aper Tuhan nak kasik. Kalo dia kasik, aku trime jek. aku tak nak mengharap iyer2 sangat. Lebey baik ada "low expectations dengan diri sendiri, dan be able to appreciate better, than high expectations dengan diri sendiri dan akhirnya kecewe" kalo tak dapat apa yang diexpect.

Nabil & Izza

Congrats to the newlyweds, Nabil and Izza.. :)

Thanks for inviting yours truly to the ceremony. It was my second invitation to wedding ceremony, done in Galway. First was Kak Mar & Masri's wedding. Anyway, it was a great day for both of them. It was truly a nerve-wrecking experience..ahahha..imagine being in the same room with the bride before the akad ceremony begin. All the tension plus the excitement, both from the bride and the audiences..and the mak andam as well..It turned out to be smoothly done. Everything was perfect, in a simple way. Well, the tok imam was a bit late..ehehe..

There's about 30 people invited to the ceremony. Well, plus minus. After all has end, it was the crying session..huahahaha. It was indeed a sad moment, especially to Izza's friend/housemates. But the cakes were delicious.... (?????????????????????????????????)

Again, congratulations to both of them!! Semoga bahagia hingga ke anak cucu..or more than that. Or, semoga bahagia dunia akhirat, that's better. Hopefully both of them will strive to be the best of wife and husband..lalala..

Alas, someone from Galway got married, thus crushing the words bout Galwegian , that has been shadowed by the Cork... Takdelah asik2 budak Cork jek yang kawen..emm..tahun ni takde berita budak Cork yang kawen ek??

"junior pun dah kawen. senior bile lagi...?"

hahhah..BERUSAHALAH kawan-kawan!!

ehehehe...

Hari ini, sedang aku menunggu bas ke kelas, aku terdengar satu bisik kecil memanggil-manggil namaku. Aku cari kiri dan kanan, namun tak aku temu pemilik suara itu. Lantas, kaki seluar ku ditarik-tarik. MasyaAllah! Ada seekor? seorang? pari-pari di antara kaki ku. Dia tersenyum cuma. Dengan jari telunjuknya yang kecil, dia mencuit ke arah aku. Terus aku dekatkan telingaku padanya. Dia berbisik sesuatu. Namun, aku tak mampu mendengar. Terlalu halus suara itu. Dia berbisik lagi. Kali ini, dia hampir terjatuh ke belakang kerana kepalaku hampir-hampir menolaknya jatuh. Akhirnya, aku mendengar juga apa yang cuba dibisiknya....

"Wei, bangunlah wei! Ko dah lambat nak pi kelas ah wei....!"


- mandi + pecut = sempat gak aku pi kelas......ahahahahha.....

Tok la nok aku sakati tok...

SYAL....

Nang menar2 sial. Polah kede muka aku jak dak Sarawak Tribune tok. Seb bait nok polah keja bodo ya orang non muslim. Mun sik nang sik la aku ngaku dirik org Swak kak tok.

Orang laki ya sigek hal juak. Nang muka sik puas ati ngan Islam. Nampak kali sengajak engkah katun yang tang last minute. Padan jak la ngan mukanya. Sak satu Msia ngerepak nya ya. Sik lalek. Biar jak apa government mok polah apa ngannya. Sak nya tauk.

Seb bait juak dak tribune cepat2 mintak maap. Mun sik, heishhh...sik tauk la aku.

Tapi, nok pelek nya juak..apa dak orang sarawak ya, sekdala nok protes besar-besaran ka, apa ka? Nampak kali daknya sik sensitip ngan hal tok, sik lalek, biar jak....bodo juak orang Sarawak tok....

Aiseh..nang menar2 sial...apa aku di sitok iya2 protes menatang katun sial ya, paduhal di negeri aku kedirik benda ya jadik...apa nak jadik ngan orang aku kedirik tok??????


Ya dipadah orang slalu..iboh nangga jauh gilak...orang kedirik ya kadang2 polah hal...

boikot Denmark

Ternyata, kita makin tertindas. Persis Dinasti China yang jatuh akibat tipu helah barat, begitu juga kita.

Baru-baru ini, kita telah dimalukan, apakala Rasul tercinta kita telah dimalukan. Semalam, gue liatin karikatur Rasul, kepalanya kepala babi. Astaghfirullah.

Semalam juga, gue liatin perdebatan antara jagoan barat dan juga tetamu Muslim, berdiskusi hal freedom of speech. Jumaat lepas, British Muslim dikecam hebat kerna telah memberontak dengan kononnya telah menghidupkan api 'terror'. Mana pergi freedom of speech yang dilaung2kan oleh Barat? Andai mereka sendiri bisa memalukan agama kita, dan seterusnya menaikkan amarah umat Islam seluruh dunia, apa tidak bisa kita buat seperti yang sama? Salah siapa pada asalnya? Salah mereka bukan? Apa rasanya andai Jesus dimalukan sebegitu?

Hmm...

Kerna itu, pena itu lebih tajam dari pedang. Kerna sakit yang datang dari pena itu, sakitnya bukan seorang, tapi seluruh umat manusia tercalar.

Di negara2 timur tengah, pantas aje kata2 nyuruhin boikot barangan Denmark ini. Ya, itu yang sebaiknya. Biar lemah ekonomi mereka. Hingga untuk membeli ink pena pun ngga' mampu.