silent treatment

I like giving silent treament.

I'm actually really good at it. Fact is, during any group conversation, I tend to be the listener. Once in a while, I crack a joke, people laugh, then I keep quiet only.

Even with my boyfriend, now my husband, I dont talk much.

Throughout my internship in Ireland, working with Irish who obviously dont speak Malay, I seldomly engaged in conversation with them.

I prefer sending SMS then accepting a call.

And finally, living alone here, with TV and Internet as my companion, hey, no need to say anything!And I can talk gibberish and nobody cares.

So, I started giving the silent treatment at work today. I didnt crack a joke, and I dont even bother at other people jokes. Most of the time, I only spoke with the staff nurse who followed me during the rounds. And with the patients and their family members of course. I like the look at their face when I ignore their comments or silly questions..

So, as few of my friends told me to..just say, apa aku kesah?

Which is great..so now,they wont take advantage of asking me to write them a prescriptions or MC or doing a quick medical check-up without going to the OPD..

And yeah, I apologised to that MA, and told him that since he thinks I'm kurang hajar, sombong and not professional..he dont have to refer case to me again next time..and I bet he wont, because I dont think he wants to lick his own spit, kan?

crap la wei..

Crap. Macam crap.. macam tahi...literally.

Kenapa la suruh someone yang cuma pandai mengintubate patient utk jaga A&E? So what? MA pun pandai intubate patient. Macam sial betol.

Paeds admission macam crap. Management macam sial. Bukan paed jek..bak kata semua la... Incomplete miscarriage tak keep NPO. Severe electrolyte imbalance tak buat fast correction. Antibiotics regime berterabur.. come on la!!

And then, yang jaga OPD pulak..slow. Habis aku ward round kene jugak cover OPD. Crap la.. Lepas tu, sikit2 admit patient..

Arghh..

Kenapa la..kenapa...haish...

ward rotation

Aku tak kisah la nak buat ward rotation.

Nak suruh aku jaga ward kau yang banyak chronic patient tu? Tak kisah.

Tapi, kalau aku jaga ward kau, aku TAK AKAN pegi OPD. Sebab kau tak penah turun OPD. Dan sila la amik alih A&E aku. GOOD LUCK dengan MAs yang bermasalah kat sana.

Dan silalah amik alih minor OT aku...pandai2 la ko setelkan kes2 excision, pipelle, dan BTL yang menanti aku. IT ALL YOURS!

Sebab tak fair la kalau ko nak jaga OPD jek, sedangkan selama ni aku jaga OPD, A&E dan minor OT. Oh ya, aku jugak jaga Mortuary, so, sila la buat post mortem yang perlu.. dan semua kes OSCC engkau juga yang punya.

So, kau ingat aku dok senang lenang selama ni? Kau ingat aku tak tau ke yang ko melepak makan breakfast kat pantry sampai satu jam? Start round pukul 9am? And then cuma datang OPD bila kaunter dah tutup?

Dan jangan harap aku akan turun OPD. Semua orang tau kau review patient OPD sampai 30minit, kadang2 1 jam pun ada. Pedulik apa aku kalau OPD habis pukul 7,8 malam. Kau yang in-charge, pandai2 la kau nanti. Dan bila MO OPD seorang akan on leave, pandai2 la kau jaga OPD tu sorang2.

Aku tak kisah. Aku tak kisah. Ye la, masa Bos tanya pasal tukar ward, kau yang insist nak stay kat ward kau kan? Yang ni tiba2 tukar fikiran, apahal? Pedulik la..mana2 la yang kau nak. Aku ikut jek.

Lepas ni, kalau staff OPD call mintak aku turun pi OPD, the hell with them. Biar kau merasa 'sedap'nya menjaga patient2 OPD tu..

tangan gatal

Itchy hands lately..

Has been asking patients around whether they want cyst/lipoma removal..or biopsy..or even a bilateral tubal ligation...

Terrible kan?

Since 4 of us are here, life has been a bit laidback..I'm back, taking care of A&E again, but most of the time, I'm sitting in the OPD.

And besides the recent 2 head injuries with poor GCS that I intubated and sent to Miri, nothing much happened. An inferior MI, gave streptokinase in A&E...boring. A possible HIV/PTB patient with massive pleural effusion and tapping done in A&E...boring.

Met a para 7, adviced regarding contraception..bla, bla..mau ikat? Turned out she's still 34 years old. Damn. Same thing with a para 5, who is again is only 29 years old. Damn. How old is she when she first gave birth? 14, 15???

Made me more "uterine" challenged.

Finally, met an old multip mother..and by old I meant 45 years old..ehehe..but the husband refused. Well, they only have 4 kids la..ngahaha...ada 2 kuota lagi before she's officially a grandmultip. CEH..

Anyway, I'm looking after the male ward, since the 'bos' is on 'emotional' leave. He hates Limbang..hahaha. Saw that the patient with pleural effusion accumulated his peural fluid again..tapi malas nak tapping. And his maternity ward has been quiet lately... no one for LSCS i.e breech, or failed IOL. Tak mau la previous scar in labour..or AFD with prolonged bradycardia..Itu saya takut wooo...

AND TIDAK MAU DEEP CERVICAL TEAR...HORROR!!!

Looking for a bleeding point through a small hole is no fun...boleh SVT dibuatnya!

Anyway, scored myself a minor OT next week. Bole la layan... sigh..

Patut blaja buat herniorraphy from Dr Daphne when she was here yesterday..kalo tak bole amik kontrak repair hernia pacik2 tua kat sini...

to sum it all

FUH!!

Bini orang dah aku ni! Huahahah..sungguh tak tersangka..

Setelah semua penat lelah, dari start berkenalan, then berdating, bergaduh dan break up sekejap, then bertunang, dan menguruskan hal2 berkahwin, finally its over! I'M MARRIED!

And the best thing is, aku tak payah pikir lagi benda2 di atas..well, IAllah tak payah la kan..

So, whats the next step? Aku suppose its time to get to know and accept keluarga laki aku. Maybe start my own family. Think about future.

Masa muda2 dan tak matang, asyik2 pikir nak beli benda2 merepek. Now, masanya untuk settle down, dan gunakan wang dengan lebih baik. Beli rumah. Saving untuk masa depan keluarga. Child's education. Maybe beli family car..ngahaha..

Anyway, doakan supaya aku cepat pregnant. 1st, biological clock running faster now. 2nd, kene kejar kakak aku yang dah beranak tiga. 3rd, I like kids.. its the best God gift ever!

Ok la..ciao. Sekarang aku nak carik makan :P

kreng..krengggg...

I need my guitar..really bad..

Its when you're alone..and you watch this movies or TV series, with good background music, you would simply feels like you have this great idea to write or compose a song..but then, without the guitar, there's nothing you can do..

I've been humming all day, singing song out of nowhere..with messy lyrics, basically just to steam off what I feel all day..but it would be great if I've my guitar with me!

Haiya!

tutup spital

SN: Doc, bila Dr G balik?
Me: (while writing pending discharges) Lusa kot..
SN: Bos?
Me: Hari Khamis kot..
SN: Dr T pegi escort patient petang tadik kan? Sempat balik malam ni?
Me: Hopefully la..kalo tak saya sorang2 je di spital ni... (then pondering.) FUIYOO!! Aku sorang ah doktor spital ni! Jadik pengarah malam ni!! HAHAHAHA!!!

SN dan aku gelak besar...SN dan JM lain turut join gelak..

SN: Macam mana kalau takde doktor langsung ah?
Me: Ntah..tutup spital kot. Chief MA la jadik bos...
SN: Apa kata kitorang kidnap Doc, lepas tu suruh rehat kat mana2...best tu..
Me: Haha, best la idea tu...jum cuba...mesti bos panik...HUAHAHAHA...

Haish.....boringnya keja...boringnya jaga patient....boringnya cover keja orang lain.........rasa nak tutup spital jek....